Working on a decent blog post where I put the last few weeks in order a bit, since I got home last week I think I've just been reluctant to think about my time in hospital much.
I'm realising the coping mechanism I'm tending to employ most right now is just not thinking about it. Which gets harder as days go on; I get tired and bored. I dont really get to go out much. There are only really two places in the house where I can exist comfortably, our lazyboy armchair and my bed, which really does get a bit boring.
Anyway, just thought I should let you know I'm doing alright, and I should have a bigger and better post before I'm admitted for chemo on monday. Or maybe on monday.
P.S to FCS I dont think you did find me on twitter, I have a private account which means to view my tweets you have to be approved?
P.S.S Sandra, LOL means 'laughing out loud' usually actually! Most of the time at least. But lots of love to you too. :)
P.S.S.S Thank you everyone so much for the lovely messages and fantastic gifts and messages, I appreciate it enormously <3
Hello Biscuit (and apologies for the informality of address in my last comment),
ReplyDeleteGreat to hear you've been home for a week now. BTW when there's a bit longer than usual between your posts we followers of your blog (a) miss out on enjoying the inimitable way you craft your writing, (b) wonder if it might foreshadow the return of your erstwhile editor Mr Fiddly Bits. So, no drama :-)
Anyway, your at-homeness is super, welcome and sufficient news, the boredom issues aside. I hope the week has given you some time to gather energy for the next treatment and just do regular non-hospital things.
The relationship between a person and their lazyboy is a complex thing. It involves many ups and downs and not just in relation to the retractable footrest, if you have that model at your place. I think in this day and age the manufacturers should think about renaming it to lazyperson, or more simply, lazybod. Or even recline-a-bod to avoid the perforative nature of 'lazy'. You're certainly not that. Recuperative activities are important business.
( Per Sandra's last, LOL could also be a geographic status term, as in 'Located on Lazyboy'. )
But enough of this waffle; enjoy your weekend. Parcels of good wishes and love are leaving from here across the airwaves to you each and every day.
Hi Katie,
ReplyDeleteThanks for posting. Sometimes I feel guilty wondering how you are because you might not always be in a headspace to share what's going on. So I - at least - do appreciate it when you share. I was thinking the other day that I started following your blog a year ago - the first blog post I read was the end of April one - and I tracked back to read the 4 that came before it. It made me acutely aware that you have been travelling along this journey for a year now. While my experience with cancer was somewhat different to yours I do remember that I did not expect anniversaries to be so hard and I found the first one the worst. So my thoughts are with you right now as you traverse this time.
One thing we do have in common is that a large part of my coping strategy was also "not thinking about it" - in fact to the extent (and I think I have told you this before) I didn't tell people I had cancer (still don't) and that the first ever time I went looking for stuff on the web (to see if there were people who'd had an experience like mine) was when I found your blog (and this was 7.5 years after my own cancer diagnosis!).
Blogs are weird because I hear so much about your journey and empathise (at times) or sympathise (most of the time) with what you're going through and feel concern for you and yet you do not know me at all. Part of me thinks that there is something lacking in this way that "internet" works.
In any case - please know that as much as is possible for total strangers I do care about you and wish you the best of possible recoveries at this time. I often wonder what you think of strangers like me posting and hope that my sharing my comments on your blog is welcome??
As for Twitter - I did find you - I recognised your picture from the pictures you have posted of yourself on this blog (but your blog address is visible on your twitter page anyway so that confirmed it). But you're right it was private so I couldn't see anything. I did send you a "follow" request but after a few days it no longer said pending so I assumed that meant you declined my request.
Anyway I hope that the next cycles of Chemo are not too bad and that you become more comfortable and more pain-free very soon :)
All the best :)
- FCS
Hello Biscuit (and apologies for the informality of address in my last comment),
ReplyDeleteGreat to hear you've been home for a week now. Long times and short times between blogs are really up to you — don't feel you have to write a big one if the last one is short, etc. If it is a while between blogs we happily bide our time, but will be happy when you set forth writings in your own inimitable style (which I I really like; your authentic voice comes through in your text). And of course, should there be a bit of a while between blogs, we all worry that we may be soon see the temporary return of your erstwhile editor Mr Fiddly Bits. He's great of course, only joking :-)
Anyway, your at-homeness is super, welcome and sufficient news, the boredom issues aside. I hope the week has given you some time to gather energy for the next treatment and just do regular non-hospital things.
The relationship between a person and their lazy boy is a complex thing, and it involves many ups and downs and not just in relation to the retractable footrest and human-driven reclining backrest, if you have that model at your place. I think in this day and age the manufacturers should think about renaming it to lazyperson, or more simply, lazybod. Or even recline-a-bod to avoid the pejorative nature of 'lazy'. You're certainly not that :-) BTW, following on from Sandra's last, LOL could also be a geographic status term, as in 'Located on Lazyboy'.
But enough of this waffle; enjoy your weekend. Parcels of good wishes are leaving from here and heading across the airwaves to you each and every day. Have a nice weekend.
'Not thinking about it' makes sense by this point. There's so much more to you than cancer and it's got to be frustrating that it's taken over so much of the past year of your life.
ReplyDeleteHope that you're having a good day. It's miserable weather here in Brisbane!